Feel So Frustrated....For doing NOTHING....

A former colleague of mine forwarded this link to me. It has touched a deep chord....so a senti blog....dont know why iam writing this...maybe venting out...?? 

http://www.ted.com/talks/shukla_bose_teaching_one_child_at_a_time.html

Well, maybe while we used to work together, we have had talks about how we people "privileged" to have the education and ways to ensure a decent source of livelihood, should do something to give back to society. 

I remember we have had passionate discussions about this. When I took decision to quit the Software Industry and join the Teaching Profession, he was one of the rare people who didnot look at me as a "mad person", joining a profession that would pay less than half my salary at that time. For everyone else, that word "MONEY" meant "Life"!! :-)

He said, as a Teacher, I can make a difference..to inspire my students to understand and feel the "Joy of Giving".....

But, for all that, I strongly feel...one should lead my example....

I feel so humiliated to know that he tried to practice what he "preached" or "believed in", by spending weekends doing something or the other for the poor kids. Many a time, he asked me to join. Asked to join as family, with my kid and husband. I had some excuse or the other. I never did. 

Now he has shifted base to another city with his wife and kid, and continues to do his bit. But me...well, am stuck in my own selfish world...same excuses....

Seeing Mrs.Bose, in the above link, I felt so frustrated....felt so ashamed of doing nothing....

This place Christel House, used to operate very near my house. 

There was a Parikrama School just next door. 

BOTH the above have shifted to some other place now. 

A lady in my apartment, used to teach at Parikrama, when it was next door. 

And me....what did I do?? 

I thought / still think....let me complete my research work....then I will do something....

Is that not procrastination?? 

Is that not "just another excuse"?? 

I feel so frustrated....

I know that as a family, if we decide to spend some time on doing our tiny bit, we could....Its just lack of initiative from our side....

I cant do anything alone...I need my family's support....Its just a matter of taking initiative....which somehow is not happening....

Please share your thoughts....on how to start...one small step at a time....